Backup JMR201603280928: Economics 101, a Novel, ch_11 -- Wycliffe, Changing His Heart

[This is an informal, unformatted backup (JMR201603280958) of Economics 101, a Novel, ch_11 -- Wycliffe, Changing His Heart

The current version is at http://free-is-not-free.blogspot.jp/2016/03/economics-101-novel-ch11-wycliffe.html.

The chapter index is here: http://joel-rees-economics.blogspot.jp/2016/04/economics-101-novel-index.html]


(The story starts here: http://free-is-not-free.blogspot.jp/2016/03/economics-101-novel-ch00.html.
The previous chapter is here: http://free-is-not-free.blogspot.jp/2016/03/economics-101-novel-ch10-bobbie-and.html.)

This chapter does not sound like an economic discussion, but it's necessary background. Otherwise, when we start trying to understand value for real, we'll get bogged down in details.


Wycliffe grinned wickedly as he put the island behind them.

"Leave them together all by themselves for three days, and let's just see if they haven't gotten together."

Then he turned his attention to the engine. In the process of playing with the mixture, he knew he would have left unburned carbon on the spark plugs. So after he had cruise speed and altitude, he had to feather the engine a bit, then restart and run it at high RPM for a few minutes to burn off what he could. Otherwise the engine's fuel efficiency would drop and leave him dangerously low on fuel by the time he got the plane back to the island in the main shipping lanes where he had his cache of fuel.

The cache was on the island he had told Zedidiah they had set down on to work on the engine. It was an island near the main shipping routes, and often used as a picnic spot and as a supply cache.

He briefly considered going back and picking them up, then suggesting they take a picnic on the cache island while they refueled. He could let the engine cool and clean the plugs while they explored the island they were on, and then they could take it slow to the cache island.

His grin softened to a smile as he thought of the food he'd left with them. He'd packed some extra candles for a little mood, as well as for light. Then he frowned as a thought that had been nagging him forced its way to the surface.

"No salad. I forgot to pack greens and other vegetables in their food box. Shoot. another reason to go back and get them now."

It had cost him as much as he would have profited from the trip to set them up with the food and to get the extra fuel for the extra trips, but he thought it would be worth it. Having been jilted by the woman he had thought was the love of his life, he had some hangups about romantic relationships.

He'd been watching Karel and Bobbie for the last four months, and thinking of the woman who had left him. Sure, he had made a casual bet with Zedidiah, but it wasn't really the bet that concerned him. It hadn't been a serious bet, anyway, no money involved, just the deep wish to be able to help someone achieve the happiness he thought he had missed.

They already had something he had never had with Tessa. They trusted each other. They worked together. They had referred to not wanting to have arguments at home, but he had never seen them argue at all. And he know they liked each other.

They must have been planning the research project for at least a year before they came, and he couldn't imagine why they would have kept running away from each other for so long. Being a former Mormon, he thought he understood about eternity, too. Denying each other the happiness he had never been able to obtain was just a crime.

After a minute of running the engine at excessive RPM to heat the plugs, he brought the engine back to a high cruise speed, and the engine's rhythm was feeling good. So he radioed Zedidiah and told him the same story he was planning to tell their professor -- Having set down on the cache island to look at the engine, they had decided they wanted to take a few days' vacation. And they had enough food in the emergency kit.

Then he set the autopilot, set his alarm, and took a nap.


With less than an hour remaining to the cache island, he was watching the fuel gauge rather anxiously. He apparently hadn't been able to get the plugs cleared well enough, and the length of the trip was, really, a little bit too close to the edge of the plane's fuel capacity. Rushing the return was also a mistake.

He kept trying to raise Zedidiah on the radio, but for some reason the radio wasn't getting through.

Then the engine's rhythm became a bit too smooth, and he knew he was running on fumes.

When the engine lost power completely, he feathered it, letting the blades turn free to reduce drag. He trimmed flaps and ailerons for all the distance he could get and wished for the island to appear on the horizon.

He tried the radio one last time. No answer. So he focused on maintaining his glide for as long as possible and thought about the danger he had put Karel and Bobbie in. It even occurred to him that making the decision without asking them was, in fact, kidnapping, and might possibly end up contributing to rape.

At twenty feet above the water and no island in sight, he pulled the nose up a bit to slow down before contact. He considered putting the landing gear down for drag, but just concenttrated on getting into the water smoothly.

The belly of the plane dipped in the water, and he was thinking about the dinghy he had left for them to maybe take a joyride in. It would not be enough to get them to to an inhabited island, and that fact worried him. As the plane slowed down and started to sink, he opened the door and jumped out and swam away from it.

He put the plane behind him, thinking that would be the best way to target the island that should be up ahead, removed most of his clothes, and started swimming with a conservative side stroke. If he could make the island, there would be supplies, and he would have a chance to contact someone to send after Karel and Bobbie. He'd probably do jail time, but at this point getting them back safely was his first goal.

After the plane sank, he tried to keep track of direction by the sun. It was low in the sky, so he kept it where it had been when he put the plane in the water, just to his left, and kept swimming, shifting from side to back and to the other side regularly, to conserve his strength.

While he swam, he worked out the distance in his head. Even with the most hopeful estimates, he was looking at swimming more than twenty hours. But he had no choice.

Finally, he started to pray.

"God, I hope you're out there. It's been a while since I talked to you last."

Stroke, stroke, conserving his energy.

"I've done some bad things. But this time I've really screwed up. Without help, I'm going to die before I can tell anyone where Karel and Bobbie are. I thought I was doing something good for them, but I was wrong."

Breathe even, stroke easy.

"It's my fault that they're in danger, but if I don't get back, who will find them? Please help me make it to the cache."

Face the sky, mouth out of water, stroke, breathe, rest.

When the sun set, he started looking for stars to get his bearings. It took about a half hour for him to find the stars he was looking for, but he did, and he kept swimming.

After about ten hours, he was wishing he had somehow kept a lifepreserver vest from the emergency supplies. He wouldn't have been able to swim very well, but maybe he could have been found by a boat or plane within a few days instead. The sky started getting light again, and he checked the sun's position and kept swimming.

About noon, he started losing strength. Thoughts of Bobbie and Karel kept him swimming for maybe an hour longer. Then he just lost consciousness.

Blackness.

Then light.

There shouldn't be light. He was underwater. He was dead, anyway.

The light grew, and he looked toward it. He sensed a Presence he did not want to face. There was an invitation in the light, but he knew he could not stand before that Presence.

It was hard to describe the direction of the light in any way but up and ahead.

In the opposite direction there was a blackness, and a presence he really wanted to avoid. Not so much an invitation as an imperious command, a seducing influence. "Give it up. You are mine." He shut his mind to it.

And then he was filled with a desire to go back in time and tell Karel not to trust him, not to get on the plane. Somewhere, he had heard that time in the afterlife was not like time for mortals. Maybe he could.

Suddenly, he was on the airstrip on their last island, watching himself load fuel. He ran towards himself, shouting, "No! Don't do it."

No reaction.

He tried getting into his own body, but his body already had a lower level entropy version of himself in it.

Bobbie and Karel came out onto the strip, pushing their luggage in a cart. He tried to block their way, but they just walked right through him as if he weren't there. Shouting, screaming, crying, nothing got through to the land of the living.

When they boarded the plane, he stayed with them, still trying to find a way to communicate.

He stayed with them to the uninhabited island, trying to get their attention and stop them, fighting the fear that he wouldn't be able to.

When he took the plane up for testing, he stayed with himself, still trying to get him to take the plane back down, trying to reinforce the second thoughts he knew he was having, trying to get himself to work harder at clearing the spark plugs, trying to get him to set the plane's speed to a more conservative speed.

And he suppressed his terror and stayed with himself as the plane went down, watching himself swim, watching himself lose his direction and find it again, encouraging him to stay the distance, listening to himself pray, wondering when the angels would show up.

He watched himself drown. And he watched as his own spirit at a lower entropy level hesitated, then left to try to stop himself.

And he heard a Voice say,

    This is not the way to repent.

Then he went back to the island in despair and listened to Karel and Bobbie talking in the dark about their plans after they got back to civilization. Bobbie was in the tent and Karel was under a makeshift lean-to formed by lining their luggage up near the tent.

And he felt the irony as he realized, that they were, indeed, making plans to be together.

Then he thought about trying to contact Zedidiah and found himself in their office several days before, watching as he joked about how Karel and Bobbie respected each other.

And still, screaming, whispering, nothing he could do got their attention. There seemed to be no way to get Zedidiah to doubt his plans for real, or to get himself to recognize that his own plans were so seriously wrong.

Again, he stayed with himself all the way to the island where he was supposed to pick them up to bring them back. And he saw a lower entropy version of his own spirit fly with them.

And he heard, again,

    No way is this helping anything.

He went back again, to focus on getting Zedidiah's attention, with no results. And again, he heard the Voice.

    This is not how you make amends.

Trying to contact other friends did not work.

Nothing worked.

But he kept hearing that Voice.

And then he started repeating his course, creating an entropic loop.

Temporal, or entropic loops are hard to get out of. They tend to amplify the distress, terrors, and passions, and attenuate the thinking. Because it involves going back in time, there's no way to count your number of times through the loop.

The primary effect is an increase in personal entropy, bringing you closer to second death.

Fortunately, that Voice also kept repeating --

    Trying to change the past is not the way to repent.

At some point, having gained significant entropy as if he had been through the loop thousands of times, his thought processes lost focus and started becoming random.

And he tried something different. He went to Australia, to find a certain police station and try to inform the Australian police of some petty crimes he had committed. He thought, if he had gone to jail, maybe he wouldn't end up flying charter in the islands, and then he could never have done these terrible things.

And he saw many other dead people trying to tell the police things. None of them were having any success.

He recognized one as a friend he hadn't talked with in a long time, so he tried to talk to him.

"Hey, Kev!"

Kevin turned away from the police officer he was trying to hound into re-reading a police report.

"Huh? Wha? Wyck! What are you doing here?"

"I really screwed up. I was going to ask you the same."

"Killed my gf."

"That's not good."

"I'm trying to get the police to take the abuse reports more seriously, so I'll be in jail before we have that last argument."

"Do you ever hear a voice telling you that time travel is not a substitute for repentance or something like that?"

Kevin thought for several moments, or it might have been an eternity.

"Now that you mention it, yeah. I've been ignoring that voice, so I haven't really heard it, but the voice has been there. What does it mean?"

"Maybe it means we should quit trying to change the past."

"But it's not really past is it?"

Now Wycliffe had to think. "Well, but we'd have to rewind the whole world. Once the future is chosen, it's chosen, really."

"Fate?"

"No, we have a choice, once. That once moves forward, and if we don't move forward with it, then we have no more choice. How do I understand this now?"

    We're telling you.

"Who are you?" Kevin asked as Wycliffe looked towards the voices, astonished.

"I'm Wycliffe's grandfather and your grandfather's friend. My name is Greg."

"I'm Georgianna, Greg's wife. We've accepted the good news, and we're your duty angels right at the moment."

"Are you the ones that keep telling me to repent?" Wycliffe asked?

"No, that's the voice of the Master, Himself."

"Jesus!"

"That's right. God Is Your Help."

"So, Wycliffe, you know why Kevin is here, why don't you tell him why you are here?"

"Well, I've been sort of not getting over breaking up with Tessa."

Kevin look startled.

"Tessa was a girl I used to date. I thought she was going to agree to marry me, but then she ran away. Said I wasn't passionate enough for her or something."

"Oh, really?"

"I've been, well, had been doing charter flights in some islands for a while with a Zealander named Zedidiah, and I met this couple that I thought needed a little push to get romantic."

"Huh?"

"They liked each other. But they weren't into romance. So I thought I should make sure they had an opportunity to get romantic. I effectively kidnapped them and left them on a desert island to seduce each other."

"That's twisted."

"Yep. For all I know, they're dead now, too. I'm a rapist by proxy and a murderer."

"But, you said, 'Tessa'?"

"Yeah. Why?"

"That's my girlfriend's name."

Greg spoke up about. "We know where she is. Would you two care to visit her? She needs some cheering up."

Kevin shook himslf negatively. "No way could I see her."

It was Wycliffe who asked, "Why? I'd say you should ask her to forgive you. I know I need to ask Bobbie and Karel to forgive me."

"Bobbie and Karel are okay. Let's take care of first things first," said Georgianna.

"I'm with you," said Wycliffe.

And Kevin thought for a moment and said, "I guess I should come, too."

And they found themselves in a white place with many people dressed in white. And they looked at themselves and realized they were still clothed in the unclean thoughts they had brought with them. The angel suggested they change their thoughts, which they did, setting aside the negatives and the terrors, and then they were also dressed in white.

He spoke to one of the others there, and he called out to someone who called out to someone, and soon they saw Tessa looking at them. Tessa would not join them, so Georgianna asked if she'd let them go there so they could talk. She concurred without speaking.

Wycliffe said, "Hi, Tessa."

She turned away.

"Tessa, look. I forgive you now, even if I hadn't before now."

"How dare you?"

"People do stupid things. Can you forgive me?"

"Of what?"

"Emotionally hanging on too long, I think. Are you offended that I kidnapped Bobbie and Karel?"

"I don't know about that."

So Wycliffe rehearsed the events that had lead him out of the mortal world.

"And I thought you weren't passionate enough. It sounds so romantic!"

"I don't think it's romantic for them any more."

"Okay, I was blind to your romantic side. And I guess I forgive you for not being able to make me see you as you are until I had gone too far away."

At this point, Kevin said, "Man, I feel like a third wheel."

And Tessa said, "No. You and I have a child. We have to be her angels now. And I forgive you, too, if you can forgive me for the emotional abuse I put on you."

"Uhm, killing you is worse than emotional abuse?"

"Sure, but I assume you've been through your hell. I've been through mine. We've lost a lot, but God is able to save us. Sin is sin. It's time to move on."

They were all silent for a moment, then Greg said, "Kevin, Tessa, Someone would like to talk with the two of you." And Kevin and Tessa went to talk with God.

Georgianna said, "I think you were saying, ..."

"Bobbie and Karel."

"You've done part of your recompense, but it isn't quite time for talking with them, yet. Are your ready to talk with the Master?"

"I guess, maybe."

Greg said, "Let's let Tessa and Kevin finish their interview. In the meantime, I think you need a review about the meaning of eternity."

"I'll say."

And Wycliffe listened carefully as they helped him recall his lessons about the nature of spirits and the nature of the mortal world, and the nature of the post-mortal existence. Then it was his turn to talk with the Master.

And then Georgianna and Greg took him back to the island where Bob and Karel were waking up from the first night alone.

"I'm on my own here?"

"Do you have a partner?" asked Georgianna.

"I guess not. But I just watch them?"

"You'll know how to help them without taking away their right to choose now," replied Greg.

"And when things are going okay here, I go help the searchers to not look here?"

"Yes."

"And this is part of how I make amends?"

"That's right." Greg answered. "You started things the wrong way. But if you had started things the right way, Jesus still intended to have them on this island by themselves. They'll have to forgive you, but that's really part of their tests, too."

"Just out of curiosity," Wycliffe hesitated and then continued, "Does anyone ever do something like this deliberately, so they can take on the job of watching over someone?"

Georgianna sighed. "Yes, sometimes people try such things, but it does not end well at all. Leaves a real mess for all the angels to clean up."

"Okay. So I'm on the job. And if I need help, ...?"

"Pray, of course." Georgianna nodded.

And they were gone.

And Wycliffe took a tour of the island while Bobbie and Karel got up and tried to figure out how to start a day without any of the things they usually used to start their days. There were lots of things about the island he did not know.


Fortunately, time in the post-mortal world flows differently from time in the moral world, and he was finished before they had started putting breakfast together.

Then he settled down to watching over them.

(When the next chapter is ready, the link will be here.)

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