Backup JMR2017042219: Economics 101, a Novel, ch_31 -- Reality

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Karel leaned forward, hands forming fists over his knees, suppressing a groan. He seemed to be in pain, not quite able to talk. He was holding his breath.
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Bobbie bit her lip and wondered what to say.

Karel just kept staring at her, but his face began to relax.

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"What's wrong?" Bobbie was not sure what to do. She moved closer to him, to massage his back. At first, the muscles under her hands shuddered. As she worked his back gently, she remembered something from her medical studies, and a light came on in her mind.

"Oh, dear, ... that was not nice of me, was it?"
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"Ah, ... "

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"I guess I shouldn't have done that?"
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She felt the muscles relax under her hand, and the fear and confusion in his face vanished as he started to breath deeply.
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{delete}After a few deep breaths, he said, {delete.}"No, ... No problem{replace}." Another breath. "{with}," Karel said with a wry smile.{replace.}Two more weeks and then you can kiss me when I'm asleep all you want."

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"Are you gonna be OK?"

"Uhm, yeah, I think so."
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"Sorry about that."{delete} She felt awkward, knowing that the apology was, at the same time, both not enough and too much. "Can I do something to help?"{delete.}

{replace}Both of them were{with}They looked at each other awkwardly, both{replace.} praying in their hearts, looking for words to say to help each other.

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"You are. Nice back rub."

"It hurts?"
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"{delete}Yeah, ... it ... hurts. {delete.}It won't kill me. So, ... why the kiss? Not that I'm {add}really {add.}complaining."

{delete}And now Bobbie relaxed, too. {delete.}"I had a kind of an odd dream, and when I woke up, you were talking in your sleep. So I came around to check on you, and, well, you just looked so sweet and you were mumbling something that sounded like you were saying you love me, and I was feeling a little strange because of {replace}the{with}my{replace.} dream, and," Bobbie paused{add} to think{add.}, "well, I just acted on impulse. I'm sorry."

"I don't {replace}think{with}guess{replace.} I{add} should{add.} see anything wrong with that."

They were both silent for a minute or two.{delete} Karel continued to breath deeply and regularly.{delete.}

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"It still hurts."
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{replace}"Yeah. ... Timing. ... Wires crossed. ... {with}Karel asked, "{replace.}So what was your dream about?"

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"Dan. Kristie. {add}Yeah. {add.}When they told us how unfair it was of us, not just to each other, but to them, too, that we refused to date each other."

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"Yeah, they did. {add}And we did, too, sort of."

"Sort of."

"{add.}I got a wedding announcement from them about a month ago."

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"It came to me, but it had both our names on it.{delete} Sort of.{delete.} 'Bobbie and Karel ... Pratt.' I didn't want to show it to you at the time."

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"Uhm, I don't want to talk about it.{delete} It isn't obvious enough?{delete.}"

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"Middle of the night, strange dreams, and this ambiguous situation, it's hard to keep a clear head. For both of us. And I am not{add} that{add.} sorry you did."{delete}

"Are you okay, now? still hurting?"

"Yeah, it's ... doesn't hurt any more."{delete.} Karel chuckled wryly.

Bobbie giggled in response, and Karel {add}reached out and {add.}squeezed her hand.

They sat together for a few more minutes, and then Karel stood up, a little stiffly. "Need some sleep still. How about you?"

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If you aren't clear about why Karel was in pain, it's not my privilege to explain in detail. We've intruded too much into their privacy as it is.

And I am concerned that I have offended you with even this much detail. I apologize. But I think it is necessary, so that we don't think too lightly about the situation they are in.

The human body can sometimes function awkwardly. A textbook on human physiology may help, if you need to understand. But it would be better to study this with your spouse than to study it alone, if possible.
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(The link to the next chapter {delete}<strike>will be here when it's ready</strike> {delete.}is here: http://free-is-not-free.blogspot.com/2016/04/economics-101-novel-ch32-weaving.html.)

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"I don't know."

{add}"Neither do I."{add.}

Neither spoke for a few moments.

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"Oh.{add} But that's not unimportant, ...{add.}" Bobbie considered what Karel was not saying. "Was I misbehaving?" she asked.

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Yeah, it's ... doesn't hurt any more.{delete} But I will have to do some wash in the morning.{delete.}"{add} Karel chuckled wryly.{add.}

Bobbie giggled{add} in response{add.}, and Karel squeezed her hand.


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"What's wrong?" Bobbie was not sure what to do. She moved closer to him{replace} and massaged his back, and felt his body shudder under her hand. Then she remembered some of her nurse's training{with}, to massage his back. At first, the muscles under her hands shuddered. As she worked his back gently, she remembered something from her medical studies{replace.}, and a light came on in her mind.

"Oh, dear{replace}. T{with}, ... t{replace.}hat was not nice of me, was it?"

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After a few {add}deep {add}breaths, he said, "No, {replace}it's okay. {with}... No problem." Another breath. "{replace.}Two more weeks and then you can kiss me when I'm asleep all you want."

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And both of them were praying in their hearts{replace} for direction from God{with}, looking for words to say to help each other{replace.}.

"You are.{add} Nice back rub.{add.}"

"It hurts?"

"Yeah{replace}. So. W{with}, ... it ... hurts. It won't kill me. So, ... w{replace.}hy the kiss? Not that I'm {replace}really complaining that much{with}complaining{replace.}."

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They were both silent for a minute or two.{add} Karel continued to breath deeply and regularly.{add.}

They were both silent for a minute or two. Karel continued to breath deeply and regularly.

"It {add}still {add.}hurts."

"It still hurts."

"Yeah.{replace}" Karel continued to breath deeply and regularly. "{with} ... Timing. ... Wires crossed. ... {replace.}So what was your dream about?"

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"It came {delete}addressed {delete.}to me, but it had both our names on it. Sort of. 'Bobbie and Karel{add} ...{add.} Pratt.' I didn't want to show it to you at the time."

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"Yeah, it's ... doesn't hurt any more. But I{replace}'m going to{with}will{replace.} have to do some wash in the morning."

Bobbie giggled, and Karel squeezed her hand.

{replacd}After sitting together{with}They sat together{replace.} for a few more minutes,{add} and then{add.} Karel stood up{add}, a little stiffly{add.}. "Need some sleep still. How about you?"

They sat together for a few more minutes, and then Karel stood up, a little stiffly. "Need some sleep still. How about you?"

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{replace}(And I am concerned I have offended some. I apologize. But I think this much is necessary, so that we don't think too lightly about the situation they are in.)
{with}And I am concerned that I have offended you with even this much detail. I apologize. But I think it is necessary, so that we don't think too lightly about the situation they are in.
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"Sounds surreal, alright. {delete}"{delete.}Maybe some regrets?"

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"Both of {add}us {add.}are still wishing for a present reality that isn't, aren't we?"

"Yeah.{add}"

"Could we have handled getting married before we came?"

"I don't know."

Neither spoke for a few moments.{add.}

"{replace}W{with}Anyway, w{replace.}hen I woke up, I wasn't sure where I was at first. The dream had left something empty in me, but that emptiness went away as I recognized the stars and smells and sounds of the island at night. Even the hard ground was reassuring, but I suddenly wanted to hear your voice. I listened for you, and I guess I was going to crawl out to make sure you were there anyway, when I heard you talking in your sleep."

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"Oh, come on. Tell me{replace},{with}!{replace.}" Bobbie said. {replace}She drew a{with}And then she drew a quick{replace.} breath, thinking maybe she shouldn't be pressing the question.

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"You were asking me why we needed to bother with the marriage license, and with waiting two{add} more{add.} weeks."

"Oh.{replace} S{with}" Bobbie considered what Karel was not saying. "Was I misbehaving?" she asked.

"Well, ..."

"Oh, never mind." She looked at the ground and smiled shyly. "But s{replace.}ometimes I do wonder why{add} we need to wait any more{add.}."

"{replace}We need to believe{with}Me, too. But we need to know{replace.} this is really what we want to do."

"We do."{add} And she looked back up into Karel's eyes.{add.}

"And that's why we are waiting{replace}. S{with}," he said, returning her gaze, "s{replace.}o we know what we are waiting for."

"{replace}Right. {with}Yeah," she sighed. "{replace.}Sorry to wake you up. I really was not thinking clearly."

"Middle of the night, strange dreams, and this ambiguous situation, it's hard to keep a clear head. For both of us.{replace}"{with} And I am not sorry you did."

"Are you okay, now? still hurting?"

"Yeah, it's ... doesn't hurt any more. But I'm going to have to do some wash in the morning."

Bobbie giggled, and Karel squeezed her hand.{replace.}

After sitting together for a few {add}more {add.}minutes, Karel stood up. "Need some sleep still. How about you?"

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If you aren't clear about why Karel was in pain, it's not my privilege to explain in detail.{add} We've intruded too much into their privacy as it is.

(And I am concerned I have offended some. I apologize. But I think this much is necessary, so that we don't think too lightly about the situation they are in.){add.}

{replace}But the human body can sometimes function awkwardly, so to speak. A textbook on human physiology may help.

You don't have to understand everything all at once, but, when you get married, you may want to study these aspects of human physiology with your spouse.

(I had thought to provide more detail in this chapter, but I provided too much. I apologize if I have offended anyone.)
{with}The human body can sometimes function awkwardly. A textbook on human physiology may help, if you need to understand. But it would be better to study this with your spouse than to study it alone, if possible.
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[JMR201704132205: backup of http://free-is-not-free.blogspot.com/2016/04/economics-101-novel-ch31-reality.html.]

(The story starts here: http://free-is-not-free.blogspot.jp/2016/03/economics-101-novel-ch00.html.

The previous chapter is here: http://free-is-not-free.blogspot.com/2016/04/economics-101-novel-ch30-fear-at-night.html. If you missed that, there will be some discontinuity here, so you'll probably want to go back and read it.)

When we learn to trust each other, we also learn how to forgive each other.



Karel leaned forward, hands forming fists over his knees, suppressing a groan. He seemed to be in pain, not quite able to talk. He was holding his breath.

Bobbie bit her lip and wondered what to say.

Karel just kept staring at her, but his face began to relax.

"What's wrong?" Bobbie was not sure what to do. She moved closer to him and massaged his back, and felt his body shudder under her hand. Then she remembered some of her nurse's training, and a light came on in her mind.

"Oh, dear. That was not nice of me, was it?"

"Ah, ... " She felt the muscles relax under her hand, and the fear and confusion in his face vanished as he started to breath deeply. After a few breaths, he said, "No, it's okay. Two more weeks and then you can kiss me when I'm asleep all you want."

"Are you gonna be OK?"

"Uhm, yeah, I think so."

"Sorry about that." She felt awkward, knowing that the apology was, at the same time, both not enough and too much. "Can I do something to help?"


And both of them were praying in their hearts for direction from God.

"You are." 

"It hurts?"

"Yeah. So. Why the kiss? Not that I'm really complaining that much."

And now Bobbie relaxed, too. "I had a kind of an odd dream, and when I woke up, you were talking in your sleep. So I came around to check on you, and, well, you just looked so sweet and you were mumbling something that sounded like you were saying you love me, and I was feeling a little strange because of the dream, and," Bobbie paused, "well, I just acted on impulse. I'm sorry."

"I don't think I see anything wrong with that."

They were both silent for a minute or two.

"It hurts."

"Yeah." Karel continued to breath deeply and regularly. "So what was your dream about?"

"Oh. You remember the argument we had with Dan and Kristie in the cafeteria?"

"Dan. Kristie. When they told us how unfair it was of us, not just to each other, but to them, too, that we refused to date each other."

"Yeah. That one. Both of them thought we should give up the research project until we could get our feelings toward each other sorted out."

"And we admitted that the dating experiment with them had gone on too long. They were unhappy with us. Not that I blame them, really."

"That experiment was sure awkward."

"They finally started dating each other after that."

"Yeah, they did. I got a wedding announcement from them about a month ago."

"You did? Wonder why I didn't."

"It came addressed to me, but it had both our names on it. Sort of. 'Bobbie and Karel Pratt.' I didn't want to show it to you at the time."

Karel burst out laughing, and Bobbie joined him, their laughter echoing across the moonlit island.

When their amusement subsided, Bobbie continued. "It was like that, but how it might have been if everything that has happened in the last four months, including Wycliffe's kidnapping us, were just a long and detailed, continuing dream we had both had separately, together, to warn us to get married before we came."

"Really? Interesting."

"And I was dreaming it in the omniscient point of view. Pure Harlequin Romance stuff."

"Harlequin Romance?

"As if it hadn't been just an experiment."

"Huh?"

"As if they had been hiding their true feelings for us all along."

Karel shook his head and chuckled.

"They were chasing us and we were trying not to disappoint them."

Karel raised his eyebrows.


"You come in, dodge their questions, tell me you're having nightmares about being alone with me on an uncharted island. And I know what you mean, but I'm scared to admit I've been dreaming the same things. So I quibble about you finding my company unpleasant."

They were both amused at the thought. Karel said, "Never."

"Uh huh." Bobbie's mouth wrinkled in a small pout. "And you come just right out and tell me it's rather the opposite. And I say that, if we are going to be kidnapped, we should do something to avoid the nightmare."

Karel pursed his lips thoughtfully as she continued.

"And you realize you hadn't mentioned the part about being kidnapped, so you know I must be having the same dreams as you."

Karel nodded.

"And Dan and Kristie have no idea what we are talking about, of course. And they go a little over the top with their attempts to defend their territory. And you and I walk off together to talk about making sure we would not be single."

"Sounds surreal, alright. "Maybe some regrets?"

"Of course regrets."

"Both of are still wishing for a present reality that isn't, aren't we?"

"Yeah.

"When I woke up, I wasn't sure where I was at first. The dream had left something empty in me, but that emptiness went away as I recognized the stars and smells and sounds of the island at night. Even the hard ground was reassuring, but I suddenly wanted to hear your voice. I listened for you, and I guess I was going to crawl out to make sure you were there anyway, when I heard you talking in your sleep."

"Oh. And then I looked cute in my sleep and ...?"

"and I wanted just a little more reassurance that this is all real."

"Wow. So. You think you're happy here?"

"I don't think I'd be happy if this were taken away from us." Bobbie's face crinkled into a strangely shy smile. "So, what was your dream?"

"Uhm, I don't want to talk about it. It isn't obvious enough?"

"Oh, come on. Tell me," Bobbie said. She drew a breath, thinking maybe she shouldn't be pressing the question.

"Well, we were arguing about something inconsequential, and I kept trying to tell you I love you. I love you, by the way."

"That's nice to hear. I love you, too. What were we arguing about?"

Karel winced and tilted his head as if he wanted to dodge that question. "Do you really want to know?"

"I told you what I dreamed."

"You were asking me why we needed to bother with the marriage license, and with waiting two weeks."

"Oh. Sometimes I do wonder why."

"We need to believe this is really what we want to do."

"We do."

"And that's why we are waiting. So we know what we are waiting for."

"Right. Sorry to wake you up. I really was not thinking clearly."

"Middle of the night, strange dreams, and this ambiguous situation, it's hard to keep a clear head. For both of us."

After sitting together for a few minutes, Karel stood up. "Need some sleep still. How about you?"

"Me too."

And they went back to their bedrolls.

"Stupid ambiguities." Karel grumbled from the other side of the tent as he straightened his bedroll out.

"Good night Karel. Sweet dreams."

"Good night, Bobbie. And thank you for being you."




If you aren't clear about why Karel was in pain, it's not my privilege to explain in detail.

But the human body can sometimes function backwards, so to speak. A textbook on human physiology may help.

You don't have to understand everything all at once, but, when you get married, you may want to study these aspects of human physiology with your spouse.

(The link to the next chapter will be here when it's ready is here: http://free-is-not-free.blogspot.com/2016/04/economics-101-novel-ch32-weaving.html.)

(The chapter index is here: http://joel-rees-economics.blogspot.jp/2016/04/economics-101-novel-index.html)

(I had thought to provide more detail in this chapter, but I provided too much. I apologize if I have offended anyone.)

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[JMR201704132200: 
If you really need to know why Karel was in pain, and if you don't want to do the research yourself, you can refer to a previous backup of this chapter here: http://free-is-not-free.blogspot.com/2016/04/jmr20170413-2ndbackup-economics-101-novel-ch30-ch31.html. But if you read that, do go ahead and research the topic yourself, from reliable sources.
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[JMR201704131230: Previous backup here -- http://free-is-not-free.blogspot.com/2016/04/jmr20170413-2ndbackup-economics-101-novel-ch30-ch31.html.]

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